[He turns his hand over and works his fingers up between Rui's.]
Sorry if I get a little- worked up-
[He turns in towards Rui then and hesitates then decides ultimately to start from the beginning. First he carefully describes the titans. In particular detail, more than he would've explained otherwise. His hand leaves Rui's a few times to gesture widely and explain certain attributes about titans. The fact that they were so difficult to kill. That you could blow them up and they'd pull back together. That the only way to take them down was by slicing through the spot at the back of their necks. He explained how for a hundred years, humanity felt safe, and then how one day that all went to shit because of the Colossal Titan-
here Eren pauses for a long moment. His hands are both clenched around Rui's and his whole body is shaking. His skin has grown a bit pale and he stares across the room as he tries hard to salvage some sense of calm. Bertl.
He jars his head to the side and explains the loss of human life on that day and how the titans charged back in. It was the most he'd told anyone about his world so far, the most detailed, and for some reason, it struck Eren as important to paint the picture for Rui. He needed him to understand the devastation that titans caused humanity. The fact that they had crushed humanity to near extinction. How they killed for no reason. He wanted Rui to understand what monsters these things were.
His hands uncurled some from around Rui's hands and he slid his knuckles against the back of her hand and quietly explained how his mother was killed. Not in explicit detail, no, but he shortly stated that his mother was killed by a titan. Then- then.]
I can't talk a lot about this part. Not because I'm not allowed or- or don't want to. I literally can't remember what happened and when I try too hard I get dizzy but my dad- he did something to me- and afterward he vanished. Then I- when we finally graduated from training and became soldiers...On our first day out, my whole squad got slaughtered...ah...including me. I lost a leg and- and everything's kind of fuzzy but um. Well titans can regenerate and- and I have a leg- see?
[He kicks out the one he'd lost and dropped it back down with a thud. He stared resolutely at Rui's arm, focusing on it.]
I'm what's called a titan-shifter. I can become a titan. I- I don't know if I'm a human or...or if I'm a titan. I like to think I'm a human. But sometimes I'm not all that sure. I can become a fifteen meter titan though. Or at least I used to be able to. I can't here. I don't know. I became a beacon of hope for humanity though because of it. I could finally do something. It was the first time we even had the slightest chance of winning this war.
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[He turns his hand over and works his fingers up between Rui's.]
Sorry if I get a little- worked up-
[He turns in towards Rui then and hesitates then decides ultimately to start from the beginning. First he carefully describes the titans. In particular detail, more than he would've explained otherwise. His hand leaves Rui's a few times to gesture widely and explain certain attributes about titans. The fact that they were so difficult to kill. That you could blow them up and they'd pull back together. That the only way to take them down was by slicing through the spot at the back of their necks. He explained how for a hundred years, humanity felt safe, and then how one day that all went to shit because of the Colossal Titan-
here Eren pauses for a long moment. His hands are both clenched around Rui's and his whole body is shaking. His skin has grown a bit pale and he stares across the room as he tries hard to salvage some sense of calm. Bertl.
He jars his head to the side and explains the loss of human life on that day and how the titans charged back in. It was the most he'd told anyone about his world so far, the most detailed, and for some reason, it struck Eren as important to paint the picture for Rui. He needed him to understand the devastation that titans caused humanity. The fact that they had crushed humanity to near extinction. How they killed for no reason. He wanted Rui to understand what monsters these things were.
His hands uncurled some from around Rui's hands and he slid his knuckles against the back of her hand and quietly explained how his mother was killed. Not in explicit detail, no, but he shortly stated that his mother was killed by a titan. Then- then.]
I can't talk a lot about this part. Not because I'm not allowed or- or don't want to. I literally can't remember what happened and when I try too hard I get dizzy but my dad- he did something to me- and afterward he vanished. Then I- when we finally graduated from training and became soldiers...On our first day out, my whole squad got slaughtered...ah...including me. I lost a leg and- and everything's kind of fuzzy but um. Well titans can regenerate and- and I have a leg- see?
[He kicks out the one he'd lost and dropped it back down with a thud. He stared resolutely at Rui's arm, focusing on it.]
I'm what's called a titan-shifter. I can become a titan. I- I don't know if I'm a human or...or if I'm a titan. I like to think I'm a human. But sometimes I'm not all that sure. I can become a fifteen meter titan though. Or at least I used to be able to. I can't here. I don't know. I became a beacon of hope for humanity though because of it. I could finally do something. It was the first time we even had the slightest chance of winning this war.